Eps 1 : Finally the End is Over......

Have you ever thought of ending a relationship? Yes, ending a relationship was never a sweet memory. It will be painful, excruciating and millions of cry. Sometimes it included yelling cursing and screaming and each other. So in a life cycle of a relationship, to begin the End of any relationship will be toughest part as you wish that this think will never happen.

I myself always try to avoid that part. To start the End of a relationship is something I wish didn't happen at all. Eventough, I am fine to end the relationship, but I always hope it is done in a good manner. Fo heaven's sake, it was never happen that way. Most of the time I feel like killing part of myself. And a very good reason for that, I have kind of strong memory of everything and I can recall those memory without I realize it. For example, if I past a place where we use to eat, suddenly all the memories will come one by one without fail. So I have to avoid those places to ensure I didn't recall it at all.

Anyway, at the end of The End I just realize that I have to just move on. The world is not over yet. There a few times where I think I want to do something really damn stupid, then my senses up and alive again so I stop doing it. Normally, I'll just keep on alinating myself during The End period. I just go drive anywhere, hang out alone at a very secluded places that I only knew and go to the places I've never been to. The only time I can cry is when I am alone by myself in my own world as it is quite hard for me to cry. After everything is over I finally move on and try to act normaly again but I just realize things will never be the same again....So this song is really meaningfull to me right now.....


Teruskan langkah melupakanmu....Lelah hati perhatikan sikapmu....Jalan pikiran mu buat ku ragu......Tak mungkin ini tetap bartahan........Perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu.......Kucoba untuk terus menjauh.......Perlahan hati ku terbelenggu........Ku coba untuk lanjutkan kan hidup........Engkau bukan lah segalaku......Bukan tempat tuk menghentikan langkahku.....Usai sudah semua berlalu......Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu.......

p/s: tbc again.....